CNY

A special date i celebrated without you at my side, i been covered by lonely. A glass of whisky + coke doesn't make different!!! And i dun really like the taste but at least im doing something!! Do you know that people drinking either for celebration or sadness, am not celebration though is CNY but yes IM..im the one always think, think and think!!! Sometime i was far away from the reality then simply think will take part in my mind. You are the one have to suffer and accept all my temper!! As people said dun allow yourself have too much free time cos you dunno what will happen!!!

Bee bee dunno whether u feel secure when u with me?? Am i doing the best for you?? Am i a good partner to be with?? AM i?? Am i?? so much am i?? Till today i still can feel the pain of my hand, am i a crazy people i hurt myself to get a minute free!!! YES, I AM..

That night, When i saw you walked back to your table,(though i was the one ask bee to let go hand) do you know i was thinking baby fed up ad? Dun bother, dun give a damn to me ad? When i decided to leave the room without informing you, and you never stop me or come to me that time i think maybe you bored with all my drama ad and bee do you know that my heart was so pain till i can feel inside my heart was asking she leave me alone? but she promised me never ever leave me...BUT when i saw you stand at the door and look at me my heart even more pain and bleeding cos i hurt someone that care me so much, i can feel that from your eyes!!! I dunno how to face bee bee so i pretend i dint saw you!! SORRY baby..sorry bee bee..

Think of your crying face, i ask myself why i have to make you cry all the time aren't i have to make you happy all the time?? That night i really dunno how to comfort you, my heart was so pain and kept on asking myself why i have to make you cry?????? bee bee drop more of your tears just because of me..not worth it!!!!

while blogging, i was texting bee bee oso..bee bee want a promise?

bee bee i dunno how long i can keep this promise but i will try my best i will never leave you sia xinyi my only one ever...till the end of my life...will never leave you alone..